Death is truth...

As deaths have accumulated I have begun to think of life and death as a set of balance scales.
When one is young, the scale is heavily tipped toward the living.
With the first death, the first consciousness of death, the counter scale begins to fall. 
Death by death, the scales shift weight until what was unthinkable becomes merely a matter of
gravity and the fall into death becomes an easy step.

I want to spend my whole life with you.

I thought about you yesterday and the day before that too 
for every day good or bad you'll always be in my head
I hope you've understood everything I’ve said 
this isn't just a joke or a silly lie 
I’d never do anything to make you wanna cry 
I’m sorry if I do something to make you really mad 
it only comes back and makes me really sad 
I really do love you and everything you are 
I hope this relationship gets really far 
I’ll never get you out I simply don't know how 
in fact I’m thinking of you right about now 
you’re everything I need and everything to me 
you know exactly who you are and what you want to be
you always make me smile just by being there 
I hope you know how much I really do care...
every time I think of you my stomach seems to twist.. 
This is why I love you, I’ve made a huge list ...
the list goes on forever and never will it end ...
neither will our relationship... you'll always be my friend 
not just a simple friend but a special friend at that
I want to spend my whole life with you....